Becoming mama, becoming papa…perpetual heartache, perpetual bliss

July 17, 2024

Nothing could have prepared me for this - that I love you more deeply today than I did yesterday, and that I’ll likely love you more tomorrow than today. Is love truly this infinite? Apparently yes, because as our little one prepares to arrive earthside, I feel my heart expanding in ways unimaginable.

(ah, so this is what veteran parents tell you, but you just can’t fathom until you go through it yourself)

And I wonder, how is your heart these days? Is it just as tender, too? It must be, but you’ve been busy holding sacred space for me.

Beloved, you’ve watched me cry almost every night this trimester. And you’ve kissed me, held me, comforted me. I think it’s the consequence—the growing pains—of a heart expanding into its next authentic form. A heart preparing to have a piece of itself live outside of this womb and body. A heart leaning in to the great and unknown transitions of our very sacred love and relationship, and trusting that it will be even more true, even grander than we could have ever imagined.

Becoming mama. Becoming papa. It’s perpetual heartbreak, and perpetual bliss. And I cherish it all. Let us treasure each moment of this life together, until the end of time ♥️